Monday, October 28, 2013

transitioning ...

i live on the cusp of a drastically different life
everything has changed in recent years
like the butterfly
sorta

maybe my colours aren't yet defined
and my wings weak
but i've emerged
am breathing
am moving
albeit hesitantly
unsure
but
headed for the light

again
i take on this post in hesitation
sometimes i feel like i'm being too personal
quite unlike me
but it's my blog
and i do it for several reasons
- to update my friends
- to display the gloriousness of my God
   who works in it all
- to record what God is doing and how
- to talk through stuff to my self
- to remind my self of stuff
among other things

i've made reference several times
to the fact that my theology
my theothink
is in transition

the day came where i emptied it all on the table
spread it out
and began to sift through it ...
it's a redo for me

all of it is in transition

there are issues that i'm making my self deal with
in such a way that a few years ago i would have called heretical
so be it
i don't live there anymore

issues like
- original sin
   and the doctrine that all people are born sinners
- salvation
   and what it means to be a child of God
   and a disciple of Jesus
- heaven and hell and futurelife
- inclusivism
  and must a person know who Jesus is to be 'saved'
- the Lord's Supper
   and what it is significant of
   and who is in and who is out
   and do we have the right to burden it with other stuff
- what is the church
  and the right of the church to be afforded special treatment by government
- evangelization
   and is that really the first priority of the body of Messiah
- the church's responsibility to the downtrodden and the hurting and the abused
- the fallacy that the popular version of evangelical christianity
   as displayed predmoninatly in the american church
   is the church Jesus built
- the blatant heresy of thieving church leaders
   who merchandise the gospel
   and gain their wealth at the expense of the members of messiah's body
- is the trinitarian view the only possible biblical construct
   or does binitarianism have a valid claim
- the doctrine of impeccability
   could Jesus have sinned
   or was that an impossibility
- the doctrine of the eternality of the Son
   was he eternally the Son of God
   or did he become the Son at a point in time
   (not arguing whether he was eternal, just in what form)
..........

that's a partial list that comes to mind over the 30 mins typing this

i'm just sayin'
virtually everything is up for reconsideration with me

during this blog post
a friend called and during the discussion
in the context of me being considered a heretic
mentioned the 'cardinal' doctrines
when i asked them to define those
we ran in to several that i now question

just sayin'
i cannot stop this
it is an urgent and critical part of me now
because i'm done living others' theology
i'm done

i cannot continue doing damage in the name of God

and i can't live lies anymore
i'm either in this
all of me
from the heart up
or i'll do something else entirely

life is in transition
may Creator God be glorified
in the doing of it
in the outcome
in me
as i look to see Jesus in people
and for people to see Jesus in me

blessings

shalom

post script ...

theology
   the stuff we put words to
   to help us define God
   who he is
   what he has done
   what he wants
etc
is not an exercise in intellectualism
not a definition of my religion
   my belief system ...
not for me anyway

for me
my theothink
is knowing God
it is part of who i am
and i intend to make it a major part of who i am
because i am his child
a disciple of Jesus
and i cannot live any more apart from my understanding of who God is
for it is out of that that i live
and move
and have my being

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