i live on the cusp of a drastically different life
everything has changed in recent years
like the butterfly
sorta
maybe my colours aren't yet defined
and my wings weak
but i've emerged
am breathing
am moving
albeit hesitantly
unsure
but
headed for the light
again
i take on this post in hesitation
sometimes i feel like i'm being too personal
quite unlike me
but it's my blog
and i do it for several reasons
- to update my friends
- to display the gloriousness of my God
who works in it all
- to record what God is doing and how
- to talk through stuff to my self
- to remind my self of stuff
among other things
i've made reference several times
to the fact that my theology
my theothink
is in transition
the day came where i emptied it all on the table
spread it out
and began to sift through it ...
it's a redo for me
all of it is in transition
there are issues that i'm making my self deal with
in such a way that a few years ago i would have called heretical
so be it
i don't live there anymore
issues like
- original sin
and the doctrine that all people are born sinners
- salvation
and what it means to be a child of God
and a disciple of Jesus
- heaven and hell and futurelife
- inclusivism
and must a person know who Jesus is to be 'saved'
- the Lord's Supper
and what it is significant of
and who is in and who is out
and do we have the right to burden it with other stuff
- what is the church
and the right of the church to be afforded special treatment by government
- evangelization
and is that really the first priority of the body of Messiah
- the church's responsibility to the downtrodden and the hurting and the abused
- the fallacy that the popular version of evangelical christianity
as displayed predmoninatly in the american church
is the church Jesus built
- the blatant heresy of thieving church leaders
who merchandise the gospel
and gain their wealth at the expense of the members of messiah's body
- is the trinitarian view the only possible biblical construct
or does binitarianism have a valid claim
- the doctrine of impeccability
could Jesus have sinned
or was that an impossibility
- the doctrine of the eternality of the Son
was he eternally the Son of God
or did he become the Son at a point in time
(not arguing whether he was eternal, just in what form)
..........
that's a partial list that comes to mind over the 30 mins typing this
i'm just sayin'
virtually everything is up for reconsideration with me
during this blog post
a friend called and during the discussion
in the context of me being considered a heretic
mentioned the 'cardinal' doctrines
when i asked them to define those
we ran in to several that i now question
just sayin'
i cannot stop this
it is an urgent and critical part of me now
because i'm done living others' theology
i'm done
i cannot continue doing damage in the name of God
and i can't live lies anymore
i'm either in this
all of me
from the heart up
or i'll do something else entirely
life is in transition
may Creator God be glorified
in the doing of it
in the outcome
in me
as i look to see Jesus in people
and for people to see Jesus in me
blessings
shalom
post script ...
theology
the stuff we put words to
to help us define God
who he is
what he has done
what he wants
etc
is not an exercise in intellectualism
not a definition of my religion
my belief system ...
not for me anyway
for me
my theothink
is knowing God
it is part of who i am
and i intend to make it a major part of who i am
because i am his child
a disciple of Jesus
and i cannot live any more apart from my understanding of who God is
for it is out of that that i live
and move
and have my being
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