Christmas passed, Christmas presents, Christmas adventing ..

now that we've all done our christmas stuff
and the wrapping paper is trashed
christmas presents sorted
and christmas is past
.. . .    .

what did we learn from it  ?
this time  ?

like, are we any closer to understanding christmas for what it should be  ?
did we do christmas in such a way that Christ is pleased  ?
are we being Christians at Christmas  ?
i ask
my
self
.... ..... .     .     .

my christmas was distorted by a computer virus
took me several hours to deal with it between christmas eve and christmas day
a real pain at the wrong time
but i had some off-computer time to reflect a bit
and that led to this
.. i had to really think about sharing it because it's very personal ..
but ...
   maybe it's for you
      too

selah ..~

o how i wish i could grasp the full extent of you
                          how you could have become one of us
                  for ever ..
     it would change me i think ..
                      i think it would make me want more to be like you
                                                                    want to be more like you

i'm so very far from being recognized as you ..
      i want to be
                           but i'm weak
                                      selfish
      unreliable
                                                 proud

         help me to wash the feet of my own heart
 and so be able to wash your feet

                         i need you
i don't want to be pretending or fooling anyone
            or fooling me
                          i want this all to be
            for you
    to you

                                   i trust you implicitly
              help my unbelief

        i love you, rabbi
                                      help me to love you more


shalom