be ye childish ..

sometimes it's better to simply move in the direction God is pointing
and let the chips fall ..
sometimes we spend too much time trying to smooth the path
   butter the bread
that we fail in a different way
even if we eventually 'win' ..

sometimes we forget that God himself said
" if you trust me
i will smoothe the path and level the road for you .. "
kinda implies .. as you go
faith is trust-in-the-doing ..
in the going he will straighten the road and level the rough spots ..
God said that ..
God

i am not God ..
  .  .  . .  . . .     .

maybe it has something to do with
being childish ..

the passage that speaks to this is ..
..  the disciples came to Jesus and said, “Who is greatest in the kingdom of heaven?” 
So he called a child and set him among them and said, " Surely, unless you turn and become like children you will never enter the kingdom of heaven; so whoever humbles himself like this child - that person is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven, and whoever receives a child like this in my name receives me. But whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in me to stumble and fall, it would be better for them if a heavy millstone was hung around their neck and they were drowned in the depths of the sea! Woe to the world because of offenses, for offenses must come; but woe to that person who cause those offenses .. 
See that you don’t despise one of these little ones; I'm telling you, their angels in heaven are constantly in the presence of my Father. 
...The Son of Man has come to save the lost. What do you think - if a man has 100 sheep, and one of them wanders off, doesn't he leave the 99 on the hillside and go looking for the stray? And if he finds it, for sure he rejoices over that lost sheep more than over the 99 that didn't go astray. 
In the same way the will of your Father in heaven is that not one of these little ones perish.
        ( Matthew 18 )

 Then some brought children to him so he might put his hands on them and pray for them, but the disciples rebuked them. And Jesus said, “Leave the children alone, and don’t try to prevent them from coming to me - the kingdom of heaven is made up of people just like this.”
        ( Matthew 19 )

Jesus didn't point to the religious
or to the religious leaders - the popes and the priests and the pastors the imams and yogis and ascended masters and the shaman..
he didn't point-out the wealthy
or the philosopher
the genius
the successful
the warrior
the rich
the emperor
or the american idol ..
he distinctly identified
                                                 the children
as ' greatest in the kingdom of heaven ' ..

that kinda makes a mess out of what we would think
doesn't it .. ?
we would have looked for ... someone else
hardly a child

has something to do with humility ..
whoever humbles himself like this child - that person is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven ..

humility
the untrained unindoctrinated unsophisitcated unschooled unsocialised unintentional unpretensious realness that comes from being who you are without feeling the need to apologize
because you don't know there's anything to apologize for

no posturing or power-plays
no facade
just ..  me

with children you get what you see
as we adult that changes as we learn the art of manipulation
and the dread of self-ish
the me-me syndrome that comes with growing up
adulting

Jesus doesn't want pretense in any form
just me
just you
he wants the heart
where the real us lives
way down to the depths
the deep and secret rooms where only i have the key
where noone goes
ever ..
all of it
all
all of me
the real me
genuine
the child-me
the only real me

be childish

i need to be childish
for if there's one person whose approval i long for
it's Jesus
because
he
is my rabbi ..

shalom