reconciliation ... more, again ...

there's this word
   that's been hanging around in my head

it won't go away

i know the word
sortof
but only recently has it struck bone

it's just a word mind you
but it will not go

it wants to stay
in my head

i think i'll let it

i think i'll water it
and see what happens
trim my leaves
as the word grows in me
and old stuff dies off

'tend to it
and maybe i'll grow some
in the 'tending

there's this philosophy
that sings
you will find what you chase
   some day
go after it
look for it
   everywhere
   expectantly
and it will appear
   later
      if not sooner
maybe surprise you
maybe mare than once
maybe more often
   the more you entertain
      the thought
   encourage the
      imagination

Creator God
looks for you/me to chase him
go after him
look for him
   everywhere
   expectantly
   longingly
   fervently
   intensely

romans chapter 12
speaks of renewing my mind
as i offer my self
   to God
not just let my self
   be conformed to the prevalent system
   my environment
   blown hither and yon
   by the prevailing winds

but rise above it
look for God
in the middle of the crap
   everywhere
   expectantly
   longingly
   fervently
   intensely

for it is my understanding
   still growing though it is
that Creator God
is into re-creating
re-newing
re-life-ing
... reconciling
all things
all
things
in the heavens
and in Earth
and under the Earth

he is absolutely into reconciliation
and i am in
i am in
in
me

i'm looking for that
   everywhere
   expectantly
   longingly
   fervently
   intensely

i am looking for
shalom

shalom

my new word
the word i chase
look for
expectantly
everywhere

shalom

i'm kinda training my mind
training my spirit
to see it
when it appears
wherever
whenever

i don't want to miss it
i want to see
even if it takes me by surprise

i long for
shalom

i live for shalom

perfect centre

bullseye

settled

balanced

unencumbered

weightless

... ~:

shalom

to
you


peace