why i blog

a blog
to me
is rather personal
it takes my take on things
it is my musings

this particular blog
concerns itself
for the most part
with my personal struggle
to be in the centre of God's will for me on Earth ...
to find that
do it

part of the finding
is 'church'
the community of simple Jesus-followers
simply communitying
in an attempt to reproduce the mindset of Jesus
personally
within community
within the larger community in which we live
... = Jesus' personal worldview
in action
in real life

as with any personal pursuit
where ethics
philosophy
godstuff
behaviour
worldview
standards
.. life
is in the balance
there are positions one takes ...
i take this position
or that position
on this matter

it is a personal position
it is my position

it is no longer a sunday thing
a church thing

it is my life
i am raking all the leaves
into one pile
and burying myself there
in the hope the compost
will give life to others

in the doing of this
there are some who have critique
who may take offense
who take positions different to mine
who disagree ...
some markedly so
others themselves musing
wanting to understand why
'what's the deal?'
why is this important?
or that?

for much of my life
i have written my thoughts
on scraps of paper
in the flyleaf of my bible
in journals ...
all in hidden-away places

i often thought of sharing
but dissuaded myself
in the thinking that others might not understand
might mistake my 'thinking out loud'
for accolade
a desire to be recognized
to get patsontheback ...

(i wonder, still, if that's my underlying motivation) ...

i simply think better when i write it out
is all

so, then ...

sometimes i offend
or step on a toe or 3
or even smell bad

i'm sorry
it wasn't meant personally
although it's personal to me
i'm sharing is all

but it's me i'm sharing
where i am now
in my trek
the view i view
from this perch
at this time

i'm morphing
hopefully it looks more and more like Jesus
as the skin dries up
scales off
and new skin appears

my personal butterfly effect

that i share
with whoever is out there
that might be interested in seeing what it might look like to change from worm into butterfly in slowmo

the offense is purely unintended
it results from that taking-a-position-thingy
pardon me
i never meant to offend

i only mean to think out loud
and share it
because you may be in a similar life-state
at this time
in your journey
and this or that thought
may help you to think through
and position your self
as you look
to look like
Jesus ...

that  is  my  aim