more redeeming the manure

so
there's this huge pile of manure there
in all its stink and putridity
in my life
right in my face
 ...

i live with it
in it almost
for i must own it ...
it's my manure pile

but

every now and then
someone walks out of that pile
walks back into my life
even if for a very brief moment
and i have the opportunity
to un-manure them
release them
...
and maybe me

i get a second chance

... rare, i admit
but it's like a huge chance
a probably-once-in-a-lifetime thing
to un-manure them

to repair
to refurbish
reestablish
refresh

undo

and redo

... shalom-like

all that manure
sitting there
up to my neck ...

but whenever redemption comes
the pile gets smaller

and then redemption comes again ... maybe
and i get the chance
again
to undo
to redo

i'll take more of those second chances, please