redeeming the manure

when i think of the energy i've wasted ...

the relationships i diss'ed
the people i put off or put down or put out
pushed aside
like leftovers

the years gone to ruin

..... ...

when i think ...

i chill inside
at the hurt i have caused
the damage i've done
the places i've run from
and to
knowing none can be undone

....

selah

but then i walk away
again
i move on
i climb out of that pit
and scramble my way to the sonlight

i love the sun

it exudes life
to all that come within it's sphere of influence
and is no respecter of persons

not even i

so i look up as i walk
into the son
and bask in his energy
not in mine

and i see
i see stuff
good possibilities
maybe a chance to repent, to turn
and head in that direction

to
not from

in hope
blinding, energizing hope
charging my soul
warming my crippled heart

because i cannot see
but i can hope
and that hope is as real as ... i am
because i faith it
because he is real
as real as ... i am
and faith brings that all to reality
gives it substance
and i can touch it
provides evidence
for my oh-so-dull mind

.... selah

i love the son

he energizes me
and renews my life every day

yea, even i

if i can
you can
anyone can

that's the life the Son brings
to all who move in his direction
that look for him
diligently

go there
head there
move in that direction

he is no respecter of persons
not even you
with your truckload of baggage

i know
i been there

i am there

come on ... .. .


shalom